I peed 5 times in 2 hours!

note the time on this thing! it'll blow your mind. not really if you really know me.

no, I'm not up early. I'm up really late.

there's nothing worse than being kicked out of your own room when you want to study for a midterm about your own race. that you know you're going to fail. which just makes a sad life even sadder. because it's like rachel, how hard can it be to learn about asian people?

asian people are so complicated you actually have no idea how hard it can actually be to learn about them.

I'm back to my radiohead phase too. this means my life is getting sadder and sadder and that I contemplate suicide more than I used to. HAHA okay not that extreme. never suicide... maybe something like idk, failing out or like just going to bed and never waking up shit like that you know?

My body is exhausted

dedicated to jerrie

On cloud nine, the heart-stopping anxiety dulls. Now it's smothered like a bruise. I don't know why Jerrie told me to do this but I was excited by the fact that someone will be reading this. So yeeeeeeah enjoy this as you laugh at me from the hallway and give me those JUDGMENT EYES and make me feel bad because you also once called me fat.

"I'm ready" -Thom Yorke

Radiohead is by far the best essay writing music. Not trance.

I found out a few days ago that I am a light fanatic. Because it "juxtaposes the darkness of my heart"

Horrid thought, no! not here!

Your honky gramma be trippin'

This was a very interesting experience, Jerrie. There are undiscovered patches in the mind that kind of spill all over the place.

But yes, I do worry for myself at times like this. At the point of no return, the tipping point, the four corners ( I made that last one up ) When I dream I only dream of the future. which just saddens me when I wake up. doesn't that suck.